fractiles

a truly random collection of thoughts. i suppose some bloggers have only worthwhile things to say. not the case with me. it has occured to me that quite a bit lately i am taking a "ha ha ha, c'est la vie!" attitude. for example, when i sprained my ankle, almost immediately after i was smiling wryly down at my injured limbs, reveling in the newness of their bloodied and bruised appearance, taking a shrug-your-shoulders-and-let-it-go type of attitude. but this is a big pattern lately. is the only alternative to complain and imagine 'if only...' scenarios? i'm sort of getting sick of this ha-ha bit. it seems sort of callous in a strange way. like i've been disappointed too much? ahh, Big Fish musings. it ocured to me while i was watching snippets of big fish this weekend while babysitting that the scenes where he visits that strange town where no one wears shoes sort of reminds me of my little spiritual revolutions. the second time ewan passes through the city it is deserted and dead, and the narraration says something like, places look different at different times in a man's life. that's kind of what happened to the framework of christianity in my life a bit, if, as i do like to do, i pin my situation on a story. i might explain that more later if i get desperate urgings. and the grand finale to this short blip: a quote from my friend that i do not want to forget because it is so darn funny: a book entitled "too lazy to work, too nervous to steal" (think about that); and, a recent 100% original quote from my brother "I will be so much happier when i am unemployed." this was said very early in the morning too. my clever brother. second thought, i would also like to mention my annoyance with the excessively original photos on myspace. yes, put on a bathing suit and point at your belly button and grin like a three year old. better yet, artistically stand on a ladder and wave. look sullen and wear a black shirt. for goddness sakes people: mugshots only please.