Fall

Fall and I are perfectly in sync this year. Normally I am sad at the light leaving so early, but this year I am smiling cozily at it as I walk outside and the light is fading or gone. I love these hot autumn days and the cool, early nights. It's nice for my eyes to rest against all the long days of the glare of summer. I'm ready for darkness and layering myself. ready to drive home from class in the dark instead of squinting against the sun. i also like all the cool air that pools into my room through the small opening in the window. and the extra layer of blankets on my bed. i love my bed, especially when it's cold. and i like the big winter robe that i put on in the early, early morning when i get up. and i like waking up when it's still mostly dark too. and i like sleeping in when it's cold too. oh fall, i love you.

I like walking around CSUN at night. Lots of the buildings are high and geometric and look sort of pretty with their evenly spaced out lights. and there are some parts of campus where i could almost imagine myself in the woods. it's slow and calm. and i see crickets everywhere - the sorrounding urban streets, the halls of the buildings. this is a good sign to me. lately i take my time walking out to my car and driving home. start my wind down time as soon as i leave class instead of rush, rush, rush and continue rushing to bed when i get home.

i'm feeding myself really well too from all of fall's bounty. honeyed yams, vegetable soups, buttery potatoes, good breads, string beans, squash, apples, nuts, cookies. yum. it's so fun to be a vegetarian when there is so much variety available. and i'm really starting to crave spiced sweet bread - like pumpkin and zucchini breads. i'm so glad that cooking is such a soul-soother for me. so many people hate to cook. i love all the scents and the chopping and mixing and the much-anticipated eating.

this is probably boring, but i am so relaxed right now. so at peace with the world as it is. fall is like a soft, warm weighted vest to me this year - like the kind they put on overactive kids. but i'm loving it - moving slow, thinking slow, feeling slow. and enjoying everything. a nice change in pace.